My house is coming along great, I have the internet, cable, and a phone line but no furniture. For real, Im waiting on my roommate to bring some up with her and then when i go to wichita ill buy some and ship it! yay for furniture.... anywho

Drawing class is awesome, I get to pretty much make up my own assignments and do whatever I want as long as I'm Learning. Its awesome.

Currently Playing Songs About Jane By Maroon 5 see related

So now not only am I going to baby showers for my friends, my age, now they are starting to get engaged and married. What happend to the best years of ur life? ya know the college years? what happend to being able to party and be your self? Is childhood a thing of the past or are people allowed to still be a child in a relationship? I thought wedding invites and babyshowers were things 'older' people did, I thought they were things in the future not the present. What happend to have a good time? Was high school the last of my party years and if I wait to settle will I end up the old maid? will everyone have moved on with out me? Can I still be the crazy girl I was in High school or is this world growing up faster and asking me to forget childhood and move into adulthood? I mean i will no longer ever be considered a freshmen again....Maybe i dont want to grow up, but whats so wrong with wanting to be a kid? and if so, can i marry another person like me or would it be too childish to marry another kid? Can people change so much from high school to college, to be mature enough and sure enough to marry or have a baby? Are we all kids inside, sum just mature faster then others or is there some force at work here that we can't control? Do people jsut wake up and decide to get marry to the person their dating or is it somthing that happens over time?

This blog might be a little long and heavy, but really i want to know. What makes peple get married and have babies this early in life? did they out live thier long ago or are they still kids inside?

Currently Playing In Between Dreams By Jack Johnson Better Together see related

standing on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away she's feeling worthless
used again but nothings different
she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care
she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful

great song.........really bored.

it's not fair that everyone is out tonight celebrating the last day of classes and I'm stuck here doing work for those classes! Finals and school suck!

It's ok though, I move into my own house in a week and 2 days! yay!

Currently Playing In Between Dreams By Jack Johnson sitting, waiting, wishing see related

Lifes sure throws strange curve balls. I mean i'm 19, honestly I shouldnt be buying baby shower gifts for anyone whos my friend quite yet, But i am. I mean couple more weeks and I"ll be babysitting for one of my freinds.....and it won't be their brother or sister. And i mean 3 more years and I should be out of college. I'm not really ready to grow up. Am I suppose to start dating people as if I were to marry them someday? Or am I allowed to still have fun and date guys I like and not worry if they would make a good husband? Life sure is screwd up. I think it enjoys curve balls the best, fast ones would be next though. I mean one day ur just fine with the idea of not having a relationship, then suddenly one day its like He turns on u and is like, ' hey your getting older, think about settling down maybe? ' I dont know bout him but i sure aint ready to do anything of the sort. Id much rather take things as they come and deal with them that way. Ya cant plan curve balls or fast ones just like ya cant plan life. As a batter on the mound ya just gotta take what the pitcher throws, and sometimes you might not like it. But the times you do are the times u should dwell on and be excited about. Because those are the times in which you are happy and those are the times that your life stable.

Ya ever wonder whats on the other side of a rainbow? Some say gold or happiness, but if you ask me, I say there is nothing there but air. Air is something you can count on always being there. Dont think im not a dreamer, I am. My dreams stay dreams tho, i dont try to force things in life to happen. If they want to fly, they will find a way.

~Blakes